Today is the 6 year anniversary of the day my daughter Elizabeth came home to hospice care, from a devastating week in the ICU. This has been a week of many tears, and some small sense of almost-embarrassment – that it’s been this many years now, and these anniversaries are still so full of emotion. […]
Read moreThree Gifts
There are three primary gifts that have helped me maintain a sense of peace and find joy in life, even with my beloved older daughter gone – the practice of staying in the present, made possible in part through The Work of Byron Katie; my deep faith in the divine and the consciousness that continues […]
Read moreHome Funeral – Upworthy shares our story
I was interviewed for a story on home funerals in Upworthy by Evan Porter, and he wrote a beautiful piece. Very grateful to be sharing it here: https://www.upworthy.com/how-a-nontraditional-funeral-helped-this-mom-process-her-daughters-tragic-death?c=hpstream
Read moreCatching Up
I’ve been feeling exceedingly sad today, and the last couple of days, and I had a few ideas of what might be contributing, including one of my dearest, most beloved friends about to have surgery for cancer for the third time. It’s also coming up on the anniversary of my father’s death, which continues to […]
Read morethis week
This week, I am crying at every little thing. Even sitting down to write a blog post makes me teary, and there’s nothing I’m particularly sad about in this moment. This week I am staying up late watching full seasons of shows I like, family dramas especially, and sobbing through them. So much emotion – […]
Read moreWhat Would Be Elizabeth’s 25th Birthday
I have been remarkably quiet here for some time. Not that I don’t have anything to say, but I’ve felt somehow paralyzed. There are some days filled with joy and gratitude – full and hopeful, and I don’t have much to say about them. There are days filled with deep sorrow, my eyes filling with […]
Read moreA Cancer Poem – by Elizabeth Blue
A Cancer Poem written by Elizabeth Blue during her treatment for non-Hodgkins lymphoma, 2012 As I pray to the goddesses of white blood cells to increase my cell counts so I won’t get sick. Won’t get a fever and go to the hospital. It becomes more apparent to me than ever: that gentle hand of […]
Read moreSecond Anniversary
9/18/14 I am over the Pacific Ocean as I write, traveling from my home on Maui to Berkeley, California. My mother, in her wisdom, proposed the lovely idea of gathering in the Bay Area, inviting me to join her there, along with my sister who lives close by. My oldest friend and Elizabeth’s godmother lives […]
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Luminous Blue 