There are three primary gifts that have helped me maintain a sense of peace and find joy in life, even with my beloved older daughter gone – the practice of staying in the present, made possible in part through The Work of Byron Katie; my deep faith in the divine and the consciousness that continues […]
Read moreSecond Anniversary
9/18/14 I am over the Pacific Ocean as I write, traveling from my home on Maui to Berkeley, California. My mother, in her wisdom, proposed the lovely idea of gathering in the Bay Area, inviting me to join her there, along with my sister who lives close by. My oldest friend and Elizabeth’s godmother lives […]
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Facing My Own Mortality
Here’s the background: for the past three years I’ve had a bony bump on my forehead. It didn’t hurt or grow much, changed little, and mostly I ignored it. It started to bother me when I saw it in photographs, and to assuage my vanity, I looked into having it removed. I was pretty sure […]
Read moreA Long Journey from the ICU to Hospice – Emails from July, 2012
These entries from my emails and journals from July, 2012, one year ago, tell the story of the hardest period in my daughter’s time of living with cancer. Elizabeth Blue was in the ICU after a recurrence of lymphoma in her brain. Since June 12, 2012, she had had two rounds of chemo which did […]
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Luminous Blue 