“Your joy is sorrow unmasked…”

“Your joy is sorrow unmasked…

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.”  ~ Kahlil Gibran

This past week included the graduation of 4 young women I know from the University of Arizona, including my daughter Elizabeth’s best friend, who was also a creative writing major, and Elizabeth would have been graduating along with her, if she were alive.  I attended her graduation with such pride and joy for her, an amazing and brilliant woman, grateful I could witness her commencement, and at the same time so deeply sad that Elizabeth was not there as well.  In an amazing reading I had with a medium, (who contacts and shares messages from those in spirit) Elizabeth had communicated that she had “graduated” in the spirit world, and is completely joyful there.  She even showed him herself with a diploma, which had been important to her, so that brought me some comfort.

On the heels of that tumbled Mother’s Day, my first without Elizabeth present.  Again, it is filled with such a combination of emotion – gratitude for my daughter Julianna, whose 20th birthday it was that same day and sorrow that she was far away in New York; gratitude for being the mother forever to both of my inspiring, beautiful and amazing daughters, and to my own mother, for all the gifts I’ve received from her, including being born; and greater sorrow that Elizabeth will never again be with my on Mother’s Day, not in her physical form…

Lucia Maya, Elizabeth Blue

Elizabeth Blue and Lucia Maya ~ April, 2012

 

So I’ve been allowing this deep well of grief and mourning to bubble to the surface, and flow through. I’m aware that when I’m in it, I’m not clear enough to write, not clear enough to read through and select Elizabeth’s next pieces of writing that I so want to share here, and have to trust the process, trust the timing, not rushing or pushing, as much as I’d like to at times!  This beautiful quote by Kahlil Gibran spoke to me and resonates deep in my being, and so I hope it speaks to you as well.

5 thoughts on ““Your joy is sorrow unmasked…”

    • Thank you. The ebbs and flows I find helpful, as they allow me to receive the grief in waves, sometimes large ones that tumble me down, and sometimes small ones that leave me laughing. Writing about the process and sharing Elizabeth here helps me heal and I’m grateful for you and other readers, who are witnessing my process – it helps immensely to know I’m not alone.

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