For some reason I decided to log in to Elizabeth’s email account a few weeks ago, just to see if there was anything important there. I discovered she had folders that I’d not noticed before, and in one called “treasures” I found this beautiful birthday email she’d sent me, on my birthday, when she was 15. […]
Read more3rd Anniversary – in Photos (2nd try!)
The photos I intended did not make it the first time, so I’m doing this again! I’m not inspired to write much today, but want to share a beautiful day of remembering, celebrating and loving Elizabeth. My mom, sister, dear friend Victoria (Elizabeth’s godmother) and I gathered with food and drink and created altars and […]
Read moreSong for Elizabeth Blue
One of Elizabeth’s closest high school friends was Julia. Elizabeth didn’t have many friends, by her own choice mainly, as she had to really like and trust someone to be open to being friends with her/him. She was very selective. Julia was one of her few friends in high school, and they stayed in touch for a […]
Read moreCatching Up
I’ve been feeling exceedingly sad today, and the last couple of days, and I had a few ideas of what might be contributing, including one of my dearest, most beloved friends about to have surgery for cancer for the third time. It’s also coming up on the anniversary of my father’s death, which continues to […]
Read moreKneeling in the Ocean
Kneeling in the ocean I feel you in the clouds I see the rain coming from far away A big grey cloud of darkness and tears The rain coming down so hard it hurts my skin My arms reaching above the ocean water In the in-between of fresh and salt Exactly where they meet My red toes […]
Read morethis week
This week, I am crying at every little thing. Even sitting down to write a blog post makes me teary, and there’s nothing I’m particularly sad about in this moment. This week I am staying up late watching full seasons of shows I like, family dramas especially, and sobbing through them. So much emotion – […]
Read moreWhat Would Be Elizabeth’s 25th Birthday
I have been remarkably quiet here for some time. Not that I don’t have anything to say, but I’ve felt somehow paralyzed. There are some days filled with joy and gratitude – full and hopeful, and I don’t have much to say about them. There are days filled with deep sorrow, my eyes filling with […]
Read moreWith Night – a poem by Sabine Miller
Thank you Sabine, for this beauty. Sharing with love and appreciation. With Night – For Lucia on the anniversary of Elizabeth’s death Blue lacewing singing in the atrium at summer’s end coaxed into open palms where it stays even while being waved through the garden, oak crickets, old moonlight – Meanwhile soliloquies of poets and […]
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Luminous Blue 