9/18/14 I am over the Pacific Ocean as I write, traveling from my home on Maui to Berkeley, California. My mother, in her wisdom, proposed the lovely idea of gathering in the Bay Area, inviting me to join her there, along with my sister who lives close by. My oldest friend and Elizabeth’s godmother lives […]
Read moreThe Shadow Side of Love
I’m crying before I even start to type. I’ve been avoiding this blog for months, knowing this post needs to be written and holding off as long as possible. It’s hard to write about the difficult aspects of my relationship with my first-born daughter Elizabeth, and yet I feel compelled to paint a full picture, […]
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Gratitude
Today I am in deep gratitude. For Elizabeth, for life, for death and the ways it shapes us and transforms us. I have cried tears of gratitude twice already this morning. I am inspired to write. It is a good day. I just read an email from a dear friend of my daughter Elizabeth’s, with […]
Read moreMoments
It’s been so long since I’ve written, and I have much to share, but I’ll start with now, with today. The first email I opened today was from Jade Beall, saying her new book Bodies of Mothers, was being shipped, and had this photo of it fresh off the press. Although I knew these gorgeous […]
Read moreGhost Cats
I’m in the process of moving to Maui at the end of this month, and I’m selling my home and many of my belongings. It’s been keeping me busy and full of a mix of emotions. Yes, of course I’m happy and excited to be moving to Maui – paradise as everyone calls it…Now don’t […]
Read moreUpdate on NPR Interview
I promised the link to my interview on NPR, and here it is: Voices for the Cure on Arizona Public Media. Mark McLemore was a wonderful, thoughtful and sensitive interviewer, and I’m so honored to have the opportunity to share more of Elizabeth’s and my journey with more people.
Read moreElizabeth’s 24th Birthday
Dear Elizabeth, it’s your 24th birthday, and you’re not here, and you’re very much here. I didn’t know exactly how I wanted to spend the day, but I knew I wanted to do some ritual to honor you, and also something to nurture myself, some way of tending to my body – my “flesh and […]
Read moreElizabeth Blue – the photoshoot by Jade Beall (part 1)
Click on any image to see them larger. These are just a few of the photos taken by the amazing artist Jade Beall, of the Beautiful Bodies Project, in April of 2012, when Elizabeth was in remission from cancer. She had finished 6 chemo treatments, and we were celebrating that she had no sign of […]
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Luminous Blue 