Today I am in deep gratitude. For Elizabeth, for life, for death and the ways it shapes us and transforms us. I have cried tears of gratitude twice already this morning. I am inspired to write. It is a good day.
I just read an email from a dear friend of my daughter Elizabeth’s, with wonderful news of a new relationship with a supportive man, a job helping others in her chosen field, going to school, going to yoga, attending a yoga teacher training…all the things that Elizabeth had wanted for this friend, and which had been elusive before Elizabeth’s death. It made me reflect on the circle of those I know who were closest to Elizabeth – her family and her close friends, and again notice the amazing gifts each of us has received, the opportunities for growth, for our dreams to manifest, for our love to grow stronger, for our awareness of “this day being the most precious possible thing” as she wrote.
I was in tears of gratitude this morning for the immense beauty I’m enveloped in, the blessings of being able to move to Hawaii; of being able to buy a home; doing the work I love – supporting others in their journeys of grief and transformation, of healing and awakening; to buy freshly picked vegetables at the farmer’s market, with views of the slopes of Haleakala, of the West Maui mountains, and the pacific ocean spreading out beyond.
I think of others in our family who have had similar gifts and blessings in their lives – my younger daughter getting an amazing summer internship and a (miraculous) last-minute place to stay for the summer, friends in wonderful relationships, finding just the right place to live, healing wounds in family relationships… I don’t mean that we are all in bliss all the time, that we don’t each mourn and miss Elizabeth many times a day, that we don’t wish for her to be here in body. I do mean that her death has opened the door for those who are ready for great opportunities and great transformation.
I believe that it is a combination of two things that have created these experiences. The death of a beloved in itself is a catalyst for great change. And, Elizabeth is a potent force for change from the “other worlds”, she is very active in answering our prayers and being a guiding force for each of us whom she loves.
So often we only look at the death of a loved one as a tragedy, which is especially easy to do when it is someone who fits this concept we have of a “senseless” death – i.e. young, one’s child, and/or someone who shines so bright, with great unfulfilled potential. Make no mistake, it is an incomprehensible loss, deserving of wailing and rage and tears and tears and tears. It is essential that I experience all the emotions to the greatest degree possible. I do not “bypass” the grief for the spiritual, for the transpersonal aspect. I do not mean that grief is not a daily presence.
And, for me, it is truly a “senseless” death if I don’t allow Elizabeth’s life, and death, to be a catalyst for my own transformation, for gratitude, for healing, for seeing beauty, for taking every opportunity to live my dreams, knowing that life is precious and we do not know each day if it may be our last.
I know that Elizabeth Blue is around me and those she knew in this life, responding to our requests and watching over us. I also know that many who have only known her through her death have connected with her and have received gifts of healing in many forms, and that she is available to assist many more people. When I ask her where she is, I hear “I am everywhere.” I can feel her close when I need her, and I can also feel her spirit from afar, working with many others and open to working with more. If you feel a connection to Elizabeth, you can ask her for guidance and support when you need. I’d love to hear stories of what you experience, as well as stories of experiences of receiving help from others who are in spirit. My hope is that her death serves as a catalyst for many, for inspiration and transformation. For me, this helps it to “make sense”.
A note about prayer: I am aware that prayer and setting intentions does not always bring us what we ask for, as our preferences are not always in alignment with what our soul needs. I do my best to keep my mind open, to ask for “this or something greater”, to receive and be grateful, to see even the challenges as part of my journey, to remember that the answer to my prayers may not look like I’m expecting. I’m not successful at this every day, and I ask for support in this as well.
Many blessings and much gratitude.
10 thoughts on “Gratitude”
So beautiful, Lucia Maya.
Thank you – I so appreciate that you came and read this!
yes! yes! beautiful things grow where there has been loss and death. it is magical.
Yes! they grow whether we notice or not, but it is so wonderful when we do notice. It changes everything – magical it is. blessings, Lucia
Lucia, you continue to open my heart with your intimate postings.
Dear Susan, thank you for writing. It makes so happy to hear! love, Lucia
Lucia, it was so nice to wake up and find a posting from you. And such a wonderful, joyful, inspiring one at that. The photos are beautiful and I can see the love with which they were taken. You really are home. And you are so right. Our loved ones who have passed are always with us, guiding and watching over us. They are ever present.
Fransi, so good to hear from you! I do feel home, I’m glad you see that too. They are ever present, and I trust this more and more with each loved one who has left, feeling a greater connection and presence with each one. Very grateful…blessings, Lucia
What a beautiful, heartfelt sharing, Lucia. Thank you so much for blessing us all with both your and Elizabeth’s writings along the way, and also for sharing your beautiful and extraordinary photos. The incredible generosity of your spirit that opens every crevice of your soul, inspires me also to open more deeply and love more fully in all of my relationships. I am so happy that you and Zellie have found such a beautiful home in Hawaii.
Namaste’ my dear friend.
Thank you so much Joan! It means so much to read your words, and I’m grateful to know that you are inspired to love more fully – that is one of the greatest gifts of life. love, Lucia