The photos I intended did not make it the first time, so I’m doing this again! I’m not inspired to write much today, but want to share a beautiful day of remembering, celebrating and loving Elizabeth. My mom, sister, dear friend Victoria (Elizabeth’s godmother) and I gathered with food and drink and created altars and […]
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Some Days with Elizabeth Blue…
Some Days with Elizabeth Preface: I am struggling a bit this week, the week leading to the first year anniversary of my daughter Elizabeth’s death. Partly for the obvious reasons – the intensity of this loss resounding in my body and mind and spirit to a degree that at times I can’t remember the simplest […]
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A Reason to Keep Living This is a piece Elizabeth Blue wrote, from the period when she was going through chemo for the first time. She was being treated for non-hodgkins lymphoma which was diagnosed 2 months earlier. The doctors had told us she had an 85-90% chance of full recovery at this point. 1.20.12 […]
Read moreHospice – last week of August, 2012
Slipping Closer to the Edge… These writings are from about a month before my daughter Elizabeth Blue died. She was at home and needing 24 hour care, having had a stroke following unsuccessful surgery and chemo to remove the cancer that had spread to her brain. She was in a peaceful state of grace that […]
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Moving Into Acceptance and Enlightenment
Moving Into Acceptance and Enlightenment Early August, 2012: Emails and other writings from Lucia Maya These are emails I wrote from the second week after my 22 year old daughter, Elizabeth Blue, came home from the hospital under hospice care last summer. She arrived at my house and we quickly settled into a routine of […]
Read moreA Long Journey from the ICU to Hospice – Emails from July, 2012
These entries from my emails and journals from July, 2012, one year ago, tell the story of the hardest period in my daughter’s time of living with cancer. Elizabeth Blue was in the ICU after a recurrence of lymphoma in her brain. Since June 12, 2012, she had had two rounds of chemo which did […]
Read moreThe End of our “Ordinary” Life – early July, 2012 emails
EARLY JULY As I share these emails, from early July of 2012, I realize this is the last period of time when we were living an “ordinary” life. Granted, my definition of “ordinary” had shifted, given that Elizabeth, my 22-year-old daughter, had already been through one course of chemo for lymphoma and was in remission […]
Read moreTwo Moments – by Elizabeth Blue
Two Moments December 7, 2011 I guess I could try and say a bunch of cliche and profound things about having cancer. “I’m lucky to be here.” “I shouldn’t be here” “I’m fighting for my life.” That one really gets me: I’m fighting for my life. The thing is, it doesn’t feel like fighting, […]
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Luminous Blue 